home alone.

i have recently realized that one of my greatest weaknesses 

is something that i need to make a strength

I've never been super good at making new friends. Okay, this sounds silly. I have friends, and I am a nice person (or I try to be), but I guess I am not very good at meeting new people and having things to talk about. I always try to think of things to talk about and I end up getting lost in thought about what I should say, so I end up saying nothing and staring into the nothingness of my brain. 

The problem here is that I have no idea how to make it a strength. Do I just go talk to people? That is so weird. With my friends or people I know, things come because I know about them. But with people I don't know the thought to ask them what they do or where they're from just doest come. Maybe I am just trying too hard. But I have realized that I need to learn this skill. 

I realized this, though, as I sit here alone on my couch on my brothers birthday. (awkward, i know) Usually it is a day full of family and we are in california and it's a celebration. But now, there isn't much to do. My friends are moving on in life on their missions and I can not wait to join them, BUT I still have a very long time until then, and if this old dog doesn't learn some new tricks, it's going to be a lonely 8+ months. 

Now, I hope I don't sound like I am complaining. That was not my intention. My hope that you (who ever you are) can give me some advice, any tricks or maybe not tricks, but tips to learn how to be a good friend maker. 

Well... happy birthday my brother! I cannot believe you are already twenty years old! Next time I see you I will be 20 and you will be an old man at the age of 22, which is crazy to think about being and 18 year old right now. 

love

the little sis