idleness

i decided in order to fix the flaws we..{i} face in life, one has to follow the steps of repentance. And so, here lies the 1st step: recognition. 

judgemental
a stream follower, band wagoner.  (whatever will avoid criticism)
lazy/friendless
a sense of entitlement. 
perfectionist

now, in "fun-dream land", acknowledging a few of these, my flaws would be enough and i could erase them. 


HAH!

hello "fun-dream land" welcome to earth. Where the only way to find joy is to get up off that lazy tail, and stop judging others, or just doing things just because, or expecting things just because. I guess these things more or less fit into one. idleness. 

IDLENESS: an inclination not to do work or engage in activities

idle-y, i judge, cause it is easier then getting to know. idle-y, i jump on the band wagon, cause its easier then searching for what i want and easier then standing alone and criticized in a decision. idle-y, i sit around waiting for life and friends and talents to come to me. idle-y i get angry at my idle self, when i don't accomplish what i had conjured up, but idle-y let get away. 

the battle of idleness: diligence

DILIGENCE: careful and persistent work or effort.

So, this week, my goal is to study diligence. How the prophets gain{ed} it. AND... i'm going to go be proactive in running my life. not letting it run me. 

mándame suerte.