xoxo
I always thought I knew exactly who I was and what I wanted, but I am slowly realizing that I have always just been a reflection of what everyone else wanted or expected from me. It has been wonderful because I have had so many wonderful influences, but I'm at the point in my life where it is time to decide who I will be, or better yet: who I am.
I always had a vision of how I would be with my husband, and it was based off how my sister missy was with her husband when they first got married. But personality wise, I am nothing like her, and we have had 2 completely different life experiences. And surely my spouse will be completely different from hers. So there is no way our lives could pass in the same way, or our way to be could be the same.
I had a vision that I would be a dance teacher forever in Utah. I have been molded into an entirely different brand of human than that. I imagined that I would get an MBA and open up a dance studio. I thought dance was my definer. No, dance was something I was put in when I was little and stuck to, and surely loved, and was given to me as a way to make it through college. But I am not a dancer by definition.
Sure, maybe life has brought me to Spanish, but I think more than anything, I chose Spanish, and God granted it to me through my mission. I have been fascinated with it since I was little, and have stuck to it ever since. And I choose to let it be part of me. Because I love it, and it makes me happy.
So here's to letting go of preconceived ideals and plans. Here's to change and growth, as scary as they may be. Here's to creating a new vision, and becoming and creating Mandy.
Here's to the beginnings of my Spanish Major, and all the adventures to follow it.
xoxo
I always had a vision of how I would be with my husband, and it was based off how my sister missy was with her husband when they first got married. But personality wise, I am nothing like her, and we have had 2 completely different life experiences. And surely my spouse will be completely different from hers. So there is no way our lives could pass in the same way, or our way to be could be the same.
I had a vision that I would be a dance teacher forever in Utah. I have been molded into an entirely different brand of human than that. I imagined that I would get an MBA and open up a dance studio. I thought dance was my definer. No, dance was something I was put in when I was little and stuck to, and surely loved, and was given to me as a way to make it through college. But I am not a dancer by definition.
Sure, maybe life has brought me to Spanish, but I think more than anything, I chose Spanish, and God granted it to me through my mission. I have been fascinated with it since I was little, and have stuck to it ever since. And I choose to let it be part of me. Because I love it, and it makes me happy.
So here's to letting go of preconceived ideals and plans. Here's to change and growth, as scary as they may be. Here's to creating a new vision, and becoming and creating Mandy.
Here's to the beginnings of my Spanish Major, and all the adventures to follow it.
xoxo
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